heaven

hahaha..

akala nya gnun kdali ung cnabi kong wag na kmi mgtxt..

its still hurts me everytime i remember that..

kasi nman eh..

umaasa pa rin ako na babalik ka..

kahit charing lang ung pagtaboy ko sau..

ikaw nman kasi eh..

‘di ka nging honest sa nararamdaman mo..

ok lng nman na gusto mo rin xa eh..

sa iba ko pa kasi nlaman..

ngaun nlang ako uki nkaranas masaktan ng ganito..

sana pinahalagahan mo ung nararamdaman ko..

kahit gusto ko mgalit bakit hindi ko mgawa..

dahil ba n22nan ko na tlaga na mahalin ka?

hindi ako ganito katanga..

may weakness din ako..

at hindi sa lahat ng oras malakas ako..

hindi ko matanggap na sa ganito kaikling panahon..

napaiyak mo ‘ko at nasaktan..

hindi mo rin pwedeng sabihin na madali ang lahat para skin..

nahihirapan ako pag nakikita ko kau..

ngwawala ung puso ko sa sobrang selos..

pero xmpre tulad ng palagi kong cnasabi..

hindi ka akin at hindi ka magiging akin..

masakit man..

bakit ka sa kanila nkakapag sbi ka..

skin hindi..

may mangyayari ba kung sabihin ko lahat ng sama ng loob ko?

kakalimutan na tlaga kita..

i still care for you..

and love you even if it hurts..

wish me happiness..

‘kaw din..

WALA AKONG KARAPATAN.

I hate the way you walk
Hate the way you talk
Hate the way you look at me

I hate the way you smile
Hate those big brown eyes
Cause I know they’re not for me

Cause we can never be
More than friends
And it hurts me
Every time I close my eyes
All I see is you

(Chorus)
And this crazy love
Crazy love
Oh this crazy love
Crazy love

I hate thinkin of you
cause everytime i do
I just keep on missing you

and I hate the way I feel
everytime your near
cause its feels like time is standing still

but we can never be
More than friends
And it hurts me
Every time I close my eyes
All I see is you

(chorus)
and this crazy love
crazy love
oh this crazy love
crazy love

I hate it when you’re blue
And how I cared for you
Hate the way my heart desires

And I hate those sleepless nights
And the pain I kept inside
But I keep on
Pretending it’s alright

but we can never be
more than friends
and it hurts me
everytime i close my eyes
all I see is you

(chorus)
And this crazy love
Crazy love
Oh this crazy love
Crazy love

I don’t know what to do
Hate me for loving you
Cause I know it’s wrong for
Me to say… I love you…

just facing the fact that you are not for me..

sorry for loving you..

i don’t want you to be confuse..

but still..

I LOVE YOU..

it’s better this way ryt?

ganito nmn talaga tau dati eh..

‘di maxadong ngpapancinan..

we barely talk to each other..

i must give up on you..

‘di talaga nag-work..

wag na natin i-entertain ung thougth na baka pwede pa..

sinabi mo nman na mahal mo ‘ko ‘di ba?!

pero ‘di ka tlaga handa..

kaya hindi mo yun npatunayan..

akala ko kya kong pancinin ka as in civil..

‘di pa pla.. mas mabuti tlaga 2ng nangyari..

sana ung sa inyo mag work..

cguro nging bulag ako..

tama c friend kaylangan ko mag move-on agad..

‘di lang nman ikaw "NAGMAMAHAL?" skin eh di ba?..

ok na ‘ko!!

nging o.a ako alam ko yan.. ]

go live your life..

open nman ang position for bestfriend eh..

‘ope ul be happy..

with her..

like what i’m doing ryt now..

but with myself..

now…

i’m really worried and scared..

i don’t know why..

still..

i’m afraid to express what i feel..

aNd say what’s ruNning on my mind..

sorry..

because i can’t let you feel u’r important..

i’m just scared..

thank you..

you fill the missing part in me..

because you trully cared for me..

i realized how important you are to me..

i can’t afford to lose you now..

while waiting for the right time i just myt enjoy ur company..

i love you ken..

now, i’m really jealous with this girl..

i wish i can let him know it..

i’ve alreay made a decision..

i’ll let you go..

even if i already love you..

i’m hurting..

that’s what i feel ryt now..

i never thought that you could make me cry..

this will never work..

i think of you..

i’m jealous but..

i don’t have a single ryt..

i’ll let you go..

before i can’t afford to lose you..

i love you ken..

masasabi ko pa kyang masaya ako?

kung bawat galaw nag-aalala ako?

prang hindi cigurado?

laging takot..

mahirap na kasi..

ayoko na msaktan uli..

ayoko ng magkamali..

lahat ng narinig ko..

ngbigay ng tkot skin..

mas msaya pa nga ata tlagang mag-isa…

iwas sakit, tkot..

hai pag-ibig..

assurance…

that’s all i want ryt now..

bakit ‘di mgawang mniwala ng isip ko?

prang may ngbubulong skin na wag mniwala?

gusto na kita..

may mga duda lang sa icip ko..

duda na lalong ngpapatindi ng takot ko..

pero ’san nga ba ‘ko natatakot?

na msktan? o maulog ng husto?

nakakalito at nkakatakot..

please give me what want..

for me to love you..